I walked the sandy shores today near Canon Beach, a place we often went to enjoy the ocean water and sunsets by firelight. I would like to say how beautiful the ocean was, but it wasn't. I walked along the shoreline alone today, kicking my sandles off to feel a million grains of sand beneath my bare feet. What a pleasure it was to feel. I know it was just the wind, but for a brief moment I thought I heard you sigh. The pleasure of the moment faded quickly, haunted by discomfort, confusion and anger over your absence. For the first time, Timm, you weren't beside me. I couldn't see you, I couldn't feel you, I couldn't hear you. The pain of that silence was so overwhelming I felt it shatter the compass of my heart. My heart is so broken over your absence. I dearly, dearly miss you, babe. There will never be another such as you. I have been blessed to have loved and been loved by you. My heart will always be yours, babe. Thank you for blessing me with your love.
Well done my love, well done.
Your loving girlfriend,
Christie
Dear Christie, I am so thankful that you were Timm's loving girlfriend. You brought him so much joy. I know how greatly he enjoyed your beauty, your unique personality, your warmth, your joy and your love. In the photo of the two of your together, I can see in his eyes how much he loved you. Never doubt that love. I will never understand why he had to die so young, with a full life ahead of Him. However, I trust God's wisdom and love for you. God will make a way for you, Christie. You are His precious child and He will love and provide for you...just as he did for Timm when his life looked so bleak. You are still loved with a love that transcends death. I miss you. Always, Mary
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